The holidays are over. The tree is gone. The beautiful red, and gold, and green Christmas decorations that I love so much have been put away. We spent the day working and playing as a family. Some fencing was repaired, cinnamon rolls were made, some cleanup from Saturday's get together with friends. In the evening we made meatball subs and played Uno Dare. We enjoyed it. I'm glad too because today was the last day of my huband's holiday break and tomorrow we return to school (still homeschooling) and he will return to work. There's an emptiness for me on this day every year. I love Christmas! I love everything about Christmas! People tend to be more giving, more caring, more tender toward each other. It's almost miraculous when you compare it to all the bickering and complaining dancing its way across social media networks everywhere. I don't pretend to be completely innocent of contribution either. But at Christmastime so much seems to be put on hold while we focus on giving each other the best gifts. Gingerbread house contests and cheesecake bakeoffs replace political hate and satire. Shopping for others replaces sitting at home in self pity. Friends gather together instead of hiding in their homes full of social anxiety. Families gather together and catch up on each others lives. At least mine do. We go to church and celebrate the Jesus' birth and sing the Christmas hymns that I love so much. It's my favorite time of year and that's why I always feel a void when it all seems to slip away into the mundane routines of daily living.
Maybe this year I will meet my goals and fill that void with spiritual and healthy things. Or maybe I won't. It's a little hard to say what will happen tomorrow, but today I succeeded and that's enough for me right now.
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